Kid, I don't even wanna be happy no more. Figured it out when I was writing your biography. Why you want him but don't want him, same way you wanted and didn't want and don't want the other him. Only thing I wan'na do's... I dunno, go more unsleep. All feels less real, more'n being drunk does even. Like it's less me so it all makes more sense. Yano yogi Siddharta something stuff.