[And Max is like this, instead of just stuffing it down, playing Eiji (badly) and letting Ash deal with things only he can. Max's answer to feeling useless is to become even more dead weight.
Ash is suffering. That much is real and clear. As usual, his capacity to do anything about it is less existent than the fuzzy humanoid shadows and lights that sometimes form in his vision. Max goes to look for another bottle; it's hard not to hope the meds he knows he's going to have to take react with whatever alcohol he can get down. If he doesn't wake up, as much as he hates to see while he's asleep, it's better.
Of course he doesn't drink enough to think that's likely. It'd be really inconvenient to Ash who needs him to be a Potemkin right now.
Why the hell isn't Blanca helping him and just making this all better?
Because Ash is busy humoring Max. Blanca, too, likely resents Max cutting into his Ash time, his Ash exclusivity.
The kid's being forced to make an unfair choice between someone he already signed on with in a contract, and someone who could actually help him. But fuck Blanca for not helping him, for some petty reason like that. Not that Max himself is much better, breaking down like this to avoid seeing dreams of the two of them.
Eiji is Ash's only salvation.
The cats are now in the corner of the office. That's where Max spent most of the last few days, so that's their 'space' now. There's a stack of handwritten papers that make up the start of Ash's biography, and many scattered notebooks and an out-of-charge tablet around the presently locked computer.]
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Ash is suffering. That much is real and clear. As usual, his capacity to do anything about it is less existent than the fuzzy humanoid shadows and lights that sometimes form in his vision. Max goes to look for another bottle; it's hard not to hope the meds he knows he's going to have to take react with whatever alcohol he can get down. If he doesn't wake up, as much as he hates to see while he's asleep, it's better.
Of course he doesn't drink enough to think that's likely. It'd be really inconvenient to Ash who needs him to be a Potemkin right now.
Why the hell isn't Blanca helping him and just making this all better?
Because Ash is busy humoring Max. Blanca, too, likely resents Max cutting into his Ash time, his Ash exclusivity.
The kid's being forced to make an unfair choice between someone he already signed on with in a contract, and someone who could actually help him. But fuck Blanca for not helping him, for some petty reason like that. Not that Max himself is much better, breaking down like this to avoid seeing dreams of the two of them.
Eiji is Ash's only salvation.
The cats are now in the corner of the office. That's where Max spent most of the last few days, so that's their 'space' now. There's a stack of handwritten papers that make up the start of Ash's biography, and many scattered notebooks and an out-of-charge tablet around the presently locked computer.]