[What the hell else can be do, even bouncing the idea off of him? It's not like he had any alternatives, nor is he going to ever actually think of a damn thing Ash doesn't. He's not Blanca. He can't be on an even playing field. He'll always just be dead weight, no meaningfully different from Eiji. That's the one through train of thought that keeps making sense, no matter how much he wants to drift mentally away into nonsense.
But Ash only sees it as self pity holding himself back, rather than an inherent uselessness.
He gets it. He wants Max to try. Eiji, despite being, well, Eiji, tried.
He eyes the pill bottle. Even if any overdose was purely accidental, if he dies, Ash blames himself and feels worse, somehow.
The most he can do is try to roleplay Eiji for him. It doesn't matter if it's all fake. Ash wants him to try, the same way he wants to keep cute but useless cats around.
What's the most Eiji like thing to do in this situation, then?]
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He's not Blanca. He can't be on an even playing field. He'll always just be dead weight, no meaningfully different from Eiji. That's the one through train of thought that keeps making sense, no matter how much he wants to drift mentally away into nonsense.
But Ash only sees it as self pity holding himself back, rather than an inherent uselessness.
He gets it. He wants Max to try. Eiji, despite being, well, Eiji, tried.
He eyes the pill bottle. Even if any overdose was purely accidental, if he dies, Ash blames himself and feels worse, somehow.
The most he can do is try to roleplay Eiji for him. It doesn't matter if it's all fake. Ash wants him to try, the same way he wants to keep cute but useless cats around.
What's the most Eiji like thing to do in this situation, then?]
Sorry.