[ He misses Max. It's a cruel feeling. Max is going through a lot, and Ash isn't helping him, so he does hate the part of him that can't just handle this until it's better. Between therapy and cheating, he's had to endure a lot. Because of Ash.
He won't read the biography. He doesn't need to. He never really need to. It was a momentary lapse in judgement. Even then, Ash knew he wasn't a good person, but he thought maybe... Maybe he wasn't entirely a monster. As Max sinks back down, he knows it was a stupidity.
Who blames their partner for suggesting after having a reason to suffer.
Max would do better without him. Suddenly, with a clarity that had been missing in the past even when it seemed just as obvious, Ash knows. He'll suffer in the beginning. Make dumb mistakes. Max likes dumb mistakes. But like he had with Jessica, he'd heal. He'd move on. It's not actually a new realization, but it's been a selfishness that held it back. Ash doesn't want what they had to be over, but how far is he going to drag Max with him?
After the therapy is over. When he knows Max can't permanently injure himself. ]
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He won't read the biography. He doesn't need to. He never really need to. It was a momentary lapse in judgement. Even then, Ash knew he wasn't a good person, but he thought maybe... Maybe he wasn't entirely a monster. As Max sinks back down, he knows it was a stupidity.
Who blames their partner for suggesting after having a reason to suffer.
Max would do better without him. Suddenly, with a clarity that had been missing in the past even when it seemed just as obvious, Ash knows. He'll suffer in the beginning. Make dumb mistakes. Max likes dumb mistakes. But like he had with Jessica, he'd heal. He'd move on. It's not actually a new realization, but it's been a selfishness that held it back. Ash doesn't want what they had to be over, but how far is he going to drag Max with him?
After the therapy is over. When he knows Max can't permanently injure himself. ]
Head upstairs before you're too tired to make it.