[Rather, if one didn't know Blanca, they could think he didn't notice. One could certainly think they didn't affect him at all, that moving in to settle at the edge of the tub and begin with a slow, soothing rub at the back of his neck is just a matter of being a consummate flirt, or a merely dedicated masseuse.
His inside is hardly so glib. It's enough to surprise himself, even if it isn't enough for any over the top reaction. Ash doesn't need his pity nor his sentimentality, and stoicism has been trained into him so thoroughly that he knows full well any attempt to express it beyond this service would seem staged. Even why he's doting this much is likely written off by Ash as Blanca's typical over the top nature.
It would be a problem for Ash, more than anything, if he contemplated too much on the fact that Blanca isn't as aloof and unwilling to assist as they both know he should be. He can't actually be such a defining feature in the life of a boy in love with and seeking normalcy with another man.]
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His inside is hardly so glib. It's enough to surprise himself, even if it isn't enough for any over the top reaction. Ash doesn't need his pity nor his sentimentality, and stoicism has been trained into him so thoroughly that he knows full well any attempt to express it beyond this service would seem staged. Even why he's doting this much is likely written off by Ash as Blanca's typical over the top nature.
It would be a problem for Ash, more than anything, if he contemplated too much on the fact that Blanca isn't as aloof and unwilling to assist as they both know he should be. He can't actually be such a defining feature in the life of a boy in love with and seeking normalcy with another man.]