[ Suddenly, as if realizing the weight of his words, Ash freezes, a red flush coming to pale cheeks. He was begging Max to stay here and help. Begging. 'I was raped, and now I'm sad. Don't leave me'. Maybe he was more neutered than he thought. Now with that question, shame washes over him. The words sound so ridiculous in his head that the need to have somebody close is humiliating. Weak.
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For a moment, shame steals his voice. ]