[Running of to Texas drained him of any right to ask when he'd ever picked anyone over Ash, what the hell ever gave him the impression he wouldn't bother to go meet with someone just to punch them in the face for thinking of the brat half as badly as Ash did himself. Not handling his latest rape the right way should've been the last straw, but somehow, someway, he'd figured out--too late to earn any good boy points for it but soon enough the last straw didn't quite hit the pile---he was going to lose him over it.
He just has to deal with people raping him. He just has to deal with Blanca. He just has to let Ash deal with everything alone in Chicago. The alternative is Ash leaves. Like he intended to do with Eiji; Eiji gets to keep him to some degree because he's a good boy who won't rock the boat or actually ask for anything. And sometimes Ash'll just leave because he doesn't wanna be at the house or because he wants to be with someone else for a while. But he'll probably come back, so there's that.
The only way anything might change Ash's mind is by just continuing to pick him over anything and anyone else. Maybe eventually it'll get through. Probably not, but that's just something he'll have to deal with too. He's the one who blew his own credibility on loving him or any of that.
Back to the house. He mentally places a bet with himself, with 40-60 odds about whether Ash will leave for a while over this too.]
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He just has to deal with people raping him. He just has to deal with Blanca. He just has to let Ash deal with everything alone in Chicago. The alternative is Ash leaves. Like he intended to do with Eiji; Eiji gets to keep him to some degree because he's a good boy who won't rock the boat or actually ask for anything. And sometimes Ash'll just leave because he doesn't wanna be at the house or because he wants to be with someone else for a while. But he'll probably come back, so there's that.
The only way anything might change Ash's mind is by just continuing to pick him over anything and anyone else. Maybe eventually it'll get through. Probably not, but that's just something he'll have to deal with too. He's the one who blew his own credibility on loving him or any of that.
Back to the house. He mentally places a bet with himself, with 40-60 odds about whether Ash will leave for a while over this too.]