[He's mad enough to stand up, slamming his hands into the table, only to then realize the futility of it, or maybe the drugs have hit him enough to find that more emotion, more cognizance than he can maintain.
He sinks slowly back down.]
Yeah.
[Just agree and fake it, same as Ash faked it in bed for him. But they both know Ash never felt that way about him before he finally let himself fuck Blanca. This is just disappointment in Max not meeting his expectations, and blaming Max instead of his expectations, now skewered because he finally let himself have who Max knew damned well was always a threat in that realm. He was usually right about those things. Ash is the one who doesn't know his own feelings.
But that's fine. As long as Max fails with a pleasant, try hard demeanor, just like Eiji but not as good, Ash will settle for him. It's just a matter of waiting for when he fucks Eiji, too. He was right about Blanca, he's right about Eiji.
Now he gets to go to sleep and watch the movie of it all.]
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He sinks slowly back down.]
Yeah.
[Just agree and fake it, same as Ash faked it in bed for him. But they both know Ash never felt that way about him before he finally let himself fuck Blanca. This is just disappointment in Max not meeting his expectations, and blaming Max instead of his expectations, now skewered because he finally let himself have who Max knew damned well was always a threat in that realm. He was usually right about those things. Ash is the one who doesn't know his own feelings.
But that's fine. As long as Max fails with a pleasant, try hard demeanor, just like Eiji but not as good, Ash will settle for him. It's just a matter of waiting for when he fucks Eiji, too. He was right about Blanca, he's right about Eiji.
Now he gets to go to sleep and watch the movie of it all.]
You're right. That's what it is.