It's not about padding my ego.

[ Ash urges him up again. He isn't even arguing so much as confirming the sky is blue. ]

But you're wrong. I was satisfied at not being chased by Dino, but I wasn't happy. I didn't look forward to anything or plan anything. I didn't have anything to lose. I was waiting to die.

[ He didn't want to, but he assumed it would happen soon. ]

You have to get to a bed.